Our Younger Years :)  / Charlene Viger (Friend)
Ok, Tash, if we were like 10 years younger I would think a few times before letting these skeletons out of the closet, lol. Ok so these are not that bad, it involves me, I was a goodie goodie, hehe, that is why you and Lillie were always allowed to hang out with me.  Anyway I am referring to the one summer when you were dating my cousin. We spent many weeks at my Aunts house watching movies, playing cards, listening to music (Whereever you go Whatever you Do - Bryan Adams) and talking.  One night I remember as being pretty funny, yet I think none of our parents would have thought so.  It was the night we went to the keg party in the park.  We were having a good time and when all of sudden someone yells Five-0 at first we were uncertain what the heck it meant and then I remember watching Hawaii Five 0 as a kid. We looked at each other and booked out of the park.  Isn't it crazy what we remember and what we thought was fun as teenagers.  Tash thank you for the memories. I Love You. Keep your arms around your Mum she needs you. Close

the holidays are finally over  / Katrina (mum)
Dear Tash , the holidays are finally over, thank goodness. I felt you beside me on the worst days. I now have to continue on my journey of missing you and learning to accept that I will never touch you again. I dont think I will ever accept it. I so wish the pain would ease off a bit because this is like living in hell not earth. I have never felt or dreamt a human can feel this much pain for so long. It feels like you are drowning and come up for air on occassion, sometimes you dont even want to come up for air because it hurts so much. I love you sweet heart, The hole in my heart will never heal until I am with you.
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Thinking Of You  / Janeane Bricker Brandons Mom (Another heartbroken Mother )




Natasha is absolutly gorgious. She reminds me of a movie star. 
I lost my only son Brandon in July of 06 in an atv accident. He was only 9. The first year without him I can describe as complete misery. With the love of God and friends I'm making it one step at a time.
We will never be the same and we will always love and miss them but it does get a little easier to deal with. I know the pain you and all her family and friends are going threw and theres no easy way around it. If I could take away your pain I would and I would bring her back to those of you that love and miss her so much. If any of you ever need to talk I will be here for you to help in any way I can.
www.brandon-bricker.memory-of.com
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Tribute to Natasha Thank you sweet heart  / Katrina Turner (Mum)
Natasha , you are already starting to help people because of your life when you were with us. 
You are making me a more sensative person. Through my pain and others pain, I am learning to be a better person. It might take years but I am going to be better for your memory sweety.
You have touched Dana in this way also.
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Thank you friends  / Katrina (mum)
I just want to thank everyone who lit candles for my sweet Natasha. It means so much to me that she is thought about. Close

A prayer for you  / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Connected by our angels )
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My Dearest Family,  / Susan~Kurt (connected by angels )
I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. You will all be forever in my heart and prayers. I am here if you need me for anything. God Bless

 
Some things I'd like to say
but first of all to let you know
that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from Heaven
where I dwell with God above
where there's no more tears or
sadness, there is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight,
remember that I'm with you
every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone,
as for your dearest family
they'll be here later on.

I need you here so badly
as part of My big plan,
there's so much that we have to do
to help our mortal man."

Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do,
and foremost on that list of mine
is to watch and care for you.

And I will be beside you
every day and week and year,
and when you're sad,
I'm standing there
to wipe away the tear.

And when you lie in bed at night,
the days chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you
in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on Earth
and all those loving years,
because you're only human
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry,
it does relieve the pain,
but remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you
of all that God has planned,
but if I were to tell you,
you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain,
though my life on Earth is o'er.
I am closer to you now
than I ever was before.

And to my very many friends,
trust God knows what is best.
I'm still not far away from you,
I'm just beyond the crest.

There are rocky roads ahead of you,
and many hills to climb,
but together we can do it
taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too,
that as you give unto the World
so the World will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who is in sorrow or in pain,
then you can say to God at night
my day was not in vain.

And now I am contented
that my life it was worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody
who is down and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up
as on your way you go.

When you are walking
down the street
and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind.

And when you feel the gentle breeze
or the wind upon your face,
that's me giving you a great big hug
or just a soft embrace.

And when it's time for you to go
from that body to be free,
remember you're not going,
you are coming here to me,
And I will always love you
from that land way up above.

Will be in touch again soon.
 
P.S. God sends His Love
 
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A Prayer for Natasha  / Susan Stoner (connected by angels )
 
Lord, I know you have your ways, but taking Natasha home
right now doesn’t make lots of sense to some of us. In
fullness of life you sweep her away, leaving us with
stunned memories of the years, days, hours, and
minutes, we shared together . . . memories we hold
tenderly in our hands now, along with feelings
pulsating and pleading for her to come back to us for
one last visit , one last word and touch before we
send her on her way.

Perhaps you are thinking we need to be reminded of the
fragile earthen vessels in which we carry our own
hopes and dreams; of how we might more often reflect
upon the silent wealth we have in those we love. Or of
how the miracles in our lives will always need tending
and attending.

But I know you have your ways. So now it’s time for us
to thank you for giving us Natasha and to begin to accept
the new presence she will have in our lives. We will
lean, in time, different ways of feeling her touch.

Thinking this is not a good time for you to take Natasha,
we still know it’s now time to be grateful to you for
the Life she leaves behind in each of us . . .

It’s time to celebrate life, even as we cling to her
during these confusing times of loss. So thank you
Lord for Natasha and her legacy of love. We still wonder
if there weren’t a better way of getting our
attention, but then you have your ways, don’t you?
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PRECIOUS NATASHA, THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR LOVED ONES  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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happy birthday  / Karen Eastling (friend)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I wish more than anything you were here on earth so that we can celebrate it together.  But you are in a more beautiful place than any of us could ever imagine.  We mourn for you more than you'll ever know.  We will never understand why the higher power took you away from us, but we thank God he gave you to us.  Even though that time was short , we are truly, truly grateful.  Thinking of you is something I frequently do.  But it is very hard because then I'm reminded you are not here with me and janet.  Those fun times I truly wish we can go back to.  It honestly does not seem that long ago.  Knowing that we will never have those times again makes me wish we had more.  You're an angel in the sky now.  Please watch over us 

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Signs / Dana Nasca (friend in US )
I noticed that Derrick wrote that he heard the song on this site the other day. Now we all have to admit to us now, this is considered an "oldie". It's not playing on the radio like all these other songs over and over. So the day before your birthday, it came on and I smiled. I rarely listen to the radio, just my 10 minute ride back and forth to work. So thank you, but you didn't need to remind me of your birthday. Because I'm sure that's what you were trying to do. 

Saw a few people the other day I haven't seen in a while. Like 10 year while. Very breifly didn't really talk about much, just a quick "Hey how ya doing" less than 1 minute talk type thing. But when I got home I wondered what were the chances that you would be with them out having a good time. 

Talked to a young girl  18 years old that came in at work the other day { you know why and what about}.  I sat with her and said things that I really feel you gave me the words to say. I think your words and my voice saved this kid. Thank you.
Love,  Dana
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PRECIOUS NATASHA,  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT (ANGEL FRIEND )
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!  / Lillie Fernandez (Friend)
Happy Birthday Natasha!!!!  I am glad you have your Poppy with you on your special day!  I miss you.  Look down on mum.  She needs you today more than ever. Close

happy birthday scorpio sister  / Jenelle Raia (Friend)

Tash me and Nikki were remembering all the crazy times we had together... especially during our birthdays. You are truely missed and we will never forget you and all the memories we have of you. I love you and wish I could have been there for you.

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xmas letter  / Mum (mum)
I found this letter that I wrote to Natasha for Xmas of this year while she was still with us. Its funny how the words mean even more now.

Dear Natasha,

I am thinking of you everyday over the holidays. Tears come to my eyes every time I think about you. I remember your sweet little face as a baby and then as a little girl. I remember how sweet you were. I remember your laugh and your tears. I remember your teenage years and believe it or not I even miss that. I miss your temper tantrums, your augments I miss your smile your voice. I miss you.
So I keep going through the photo albums just to get a glimpse of you, to try and feel close to you. I love you so much. While going thru the pictures I thought you and Dwane might like child hood copies. I have spent the last week trying to get copies for you both. I hope you enjoy them and they make you laugh, smile and cry like they do for me.

Have a merry Christmas and you will be in my thoughts and heart. Words cant describe how much I love and miss you.
Have a wonderful New year.
Love always Mum
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Happy birthday sweet child of mine  / Katrina (mum)
I wrote a poem and had so much to say today , but I just cant do it.  Its too sad. . We are going to go to a loud noisy restaurant maybe applebees you liked loud noisy places. I will like I said get an ice-cream cake and I will make a Dodgy chocolate one too. :)

What would you say to me if you could reply to my letters, 
 I would say Natasha sweet heart I am so sorry I could not help you,  
 and you would say mum forgive me I tried so hard dont hate me. 
I would say I always forgave you I loved you unconditionaly nothing I mean nothing would or could make me not love you, 
and you would smile and say I know mum but I want you to be proud of me. and I would say I am proud of you.
 
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Happy B-Day  / Derrick Powell (Friend)

Happy 28th B-day Tash, I feel kinda empty saying that.....the other day while I was shopping in Marshall's the song by Seal that is on this site started playing over the speakers and I stopped real quick and just thought how odd is that....where you shopping with me that day???? hmmm I wonder....well anyway happy b-day babygirl..love ya, Derrick

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TO A DEAR CHILD AND FRIEND  / CAROL KOSCO (FRIEND)
SO MANY PROBLEMS SO YOUNG A CHILD. WHY? MY HEART BREAKS AND SO DOES DANA'S. WE TALK ABUT YOU OFTEN, AND ALWAYS HAVE. YOU ARE MISSED, BUT WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR THOUGHTS. Close

Happy birthday angel  / Kassandra Kolstad (best friend/sister )
This year our birthdays have been very hard for me. I remember we used to love having our birthdays so close together, we used to love doing everything together.
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you how much I love you. 
I miss you so much, you were more then my best friend for my whole life, you were my sister and soul mate.
I hope the cake in heaven tastes better then any you have ever had and that you and Tim are happy now you are together.
Happy birthday Angel
lylas forever Kassandra (Angelica)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASH  / Helga Pesenhofer (Aunty)
15 November 2007

Today is Tash's birthday and all of you can imagine what a very sad day it is for us without her. I was searching for the right words to express how I feel today and found this poem. I want to thank everyone who realise it's her birthday and are sending your thoughts to Natasha, Natasha's Mother Kartrina and her family. Thank you for that comfort.

Tash...
We miss all that you were
We miss all that you would have become
We miss all that you did
We miss all that you would have done
We miss all that you said
We miss all that you would say
We miss loving you
We miss all the love you had for us
We had so much love, joy, hope,
peace and dreams for the future
Now we have so much pain, sorrow,
grief, loss, anger, remorse, broken
hearts and broken dreams that have
destroyed our peace, hope and future
We hold on to our precious memories
but it will never be enough
For nothing we will ever have or do can
fill the vast hole in our hearts and lives
when we lost you.
Missing you always.....
Loving you forever.....
Forgetting you never.....
Happy Birthday sweet angle... 

Love you Tash...
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